To Michelle-

Dear Michelle-
I have started this letter so many times that I have lost count. At times I have been sad, missing you, well, missing the person I thought you were anyway. Other times I have been hurt, offended, angry, guilty, confused.... You name it. I wanted to send you the lyrics to many songs including which to bury, us or the hatchet, but after learning about how often you talked bad behind my back, everything you said about my own humiliating faults I am so desperately ashamed of that I don't want ANYONE to know about, all the love that I had once had for you is gone. I mean how would you feel if the things you hate most about yourself were put up on display, and you were made a mockery by the closest friend you thought you had? It saddens me that you felt as though you could not be truthful with me and that this was your only choice. It is quite obvious that you did not feel the way I did about our friendship, even though you put up a front that you did. I have prayed about what to say to you for some time now, and the only answer the Lord has given me is that I need to forgive you. In fact, minutes after a prayer for answers, I picked up my bible searching for what Jesus would do and he led me to The Parable of the Unmerciful Servant. Matthew 18:21-35. You should read it. That being said, I forgive you Michelle. As much for myself to move on as for you. I certainly wish you the best with your life and pray that you are able to see the wonderful things that God has given you. I am also praying that you once again open your heart to the Lord and let him lead you in all that you do.

God Bless you and yours,
Christy










I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select
you keep the bad but the good you just forget
And even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
When you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened

And all this time I never thought
That all we had would be all for naught

No I don't hate you, don't wanna fight you
Know I'll always love you but right now I just don't like you
No I don't hate you don't wanna fight you
Know I'll always love you but right now I just don't like you
Cause you took this too far, too far

Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
Go with your instincts along with some bad advice
This didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
You blame me but some of this is still your fault

I tried to move you but you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
You said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that

No I don't hate you, don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you but right now I just don't like you
No I don't hate you, don't want to fight you
Know I'll always love you but right now I just don't like you

Wisdom always chooses
These black eyes and these bruises
Over the heartache that they say
Never completely goes away
Wisdom always chooses
These black eyes and these bruises
Over the heartache that they say
Never completely goes away

No I don't hate you, don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you but right now I just don't like you
No I don't hate you, don't want to fight you
Know I'll always love you but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far

What happened to us
I heard that it's me we should blame
What happened to us
Why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
And know that I don't hate you
And know that I don't want to fight you
And know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...


Which to Bury, Us or the Hatchet - By: Relient K