What do I do to deserve this? I thought I was a good mom, loving to my kids, yet disciplining them as well. I can't take this frustration any more. My oldest 2 kids WILL NOT go to bed worth a darn for me. And every morning I go in their room is some kind of evidence that they've been up out of their beds and in the kitchen during the night. Food everywhere. Clothes pulled out of the dresser, dirty from food. How do I make this stop? I have tried SO very hard with this. There is nothing that will get them to go to bed like they should and I don't know what to do. I'm losing my mind because of it. WHAT DO I DO! I don't allow them food in their room during the day, so what on earth makes them think that in the middle of the night when they should be sleeping that they can get up and get whatever kind of food they want out of the fridge and pantry? They are NOT hungry, I mean come on we had dinner about 1.5 hours before "bed time" which means NOTHING to them. I'm so frustrated and tired and SICK of dealing with this. Why is it so hard, and WHY ON EARTH if having 2 kids who behave this way makes me so crazy, did God decide to pile 2 more on top of those 2? I seriously feel SOOOOOOO STUCK. And I don't know where to go from here.
"Be My Escape"
I’ve given up on giving up slowly,
I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity
and I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity
and I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity
and I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I fought You for so longI should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were You
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
SO frustrated
Posted by Christy at 12:55 AM
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2 comments:
Don't let them have your sanity! My kids are the same way, so they get a "snack" before bed. Usually something like graham crakers and milk, animal crackers or along those lines with a drink. They can have the small bags of cookies in their bed, lol, but that is because we banned everything else. They take sippy cups to bed. It somewhat helps. We usually had the gate across their door, but now they are somewhat too big for that, so we have that same problem of them coming out all night long! They do have movies for bed and that has somewhat helped. It is hard to get mine to go to bed too, just the boys. It must be a boy thing, because my girls, lol, have no issues most nights. lol. I feel your pain and know that I am here for ya!!!
I really feel for ya........AJ is 10 but going on 16.....I don't mean this in jest......but have you thought about calling the Nanny? sometimes we just need someone else to come help us........its the hardest job in the world....being a mom.........I wouldn't change it for anything, but sometimes I sure wish I had a break.......but it seems motherhood is not entitled to breaks! LOL
Keep your chin up........and know that mothers out there know what you are going through.
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