Jason is home, I need to RANT!

Wow what a rough couple of days I've had! I have a few items I want to make for the crochet raffle I'm in so I decided to start on one today. I forgot how it helps me calm down. I guess thats what I get for trying to be the "perfect" mom. Just so you know.... ITS NOT POSSIBLE! *sigh* There are somethings in my life right now that I just CANNOT deal with. I am getting frusterated with them and I don't know exactly what to do, if there is anything I CAN do about it. This grey area of "not knowing" what is going to happen is killing me. Are we going to get the house or are we going to have to find something else? I'm so tired of people telling me what I need to do and NEVER listening. I am always the person that others depend on but no one is ever here for me. Most of the time its because their time is too important to waste on me. I haven't been away from my kids in MONTHS. Not all of them. Not for more than a few hours. At the most its from about 6 pm until around 11 am the next day. And there is only 1 person that will watch them for me. I have another person that will watch them for me in an emergency(when I have had to take one or the other to the dr or the hospital) but I don't feel comfortable asking her to watch them because she has kids of her own. I just need an escape. To run away for a while! I NEED A BREAK! Ok well I will talk to you later. Please please please pray that we get this house!